Family

Family is so important. With out family there is nothing. Family is a word that doesn't seem to have the glue that kept you together. Seems the family unit is falling apart piece by piece. When I think of my own family, my close family I think of the laughter, the fun times, the risky times and the all out love we have for one another. I hate seeing my family struggle, I hate seeing struggles I can't fix. Honestly it breaks my heart when there is strife. It makes me sad when there is any kind of fight or disagreement. I never want to take sides. Always want to love and get along. Families sometimes do fight however and many times the bond grows even stronger in the end.
My mom always said to us growing up "treat one another as if it was your last day on earth because you never know your time and how short it is" and boy that was hard to grasp onto when you couldn't stand the other ones face (laugh out loud). But its so true what mom said so many times, so many years ago. What if something terrible were to happen and we were to never see that person again? Would the little things we fight about matter while seeing them in their casket? Would those hurtful words, or evil stares, or delete option buttons be what you would want to be between you if that was the last thing you had between you and that loved one lay in his/her casket? Think about your answer for just a minute with your heart.
I have personally had some heartbreaking things happen in my life with my own family. But I walked away with one thing and that is give it to God, pray for them and look at them how God sees them (as His child) because that is how God see's us.
Each of us are guilty, each one at fault. I am at fault and guilty. The Lord is working on my every day that I breath. I never want anyone to look at me lay in my casket and would rather never see me alive. I want to leave a legacy, a blessing behind. I want to know when its my time that I left a legacy of love, compassion and laughter. A legacy of love for family and God (not in that order).
Family is most important!!

Weddings...

This past week-end I went to a beautiful wedding of a cousin of mine. She was a beautiful bride! Anyway we pull up to a home that looked like a golf coarse. Matter of fact when we pulled up I thought we were going to a gulf course. They had a beautiful pond with lights all around it and floating lamps in the water. They had a wonderful DJ and lots of laughs and good times. The family always treats us with the kindest and most loving of any family I have ever seen. We are honored to be apart of this wonderful celebration! Congrats to a beautiful couple!

Home schooling and moral choice

Brian and I decided to home school our kids. There are many, many reasons we made the decision to do so. It has been heavy on my heart for along time.
The moral in the school system is getting further and further away, to a point its sickening. I see obvious agenda's being taught to our children little by little. One decision is when I found they are talking about taking the constitution out of our history books. Our country was built on God's foundation and slowly but surely our country is being robbed of our rights to worship and religious beliefs. While other religions can practice what they believe and somehow it is accepted. This is no news, but I am responsible for me children and their upbringing.
I have heard many arguments where people say "yeah but that is not the real world what are they going to do when faced with reality" I say seriously so if the reality is that every man was a child molester shall I say well kids, you need to live in the real world cuz one day you will face it? Maybe so but what is wrong with keeping my kids innocent for as long as I can?
Not saying that parents are bad for putting their kids in a public school. Its their choice as this is mine. Parents have choices for their own family and this one is mine and what I feel is best for my children.

Where we live is known for Meth and some of the kids coming out of the schools makes me sad for them. I see so many children that have not only been taught there is no hope but live like there is non. Yes we are suppose to reach those kids, I agree. But if my kids are not learning about hope and being a light in the darkness how are they suppose to be the light by being taught the darkness of some of the curriculum of today?
I am not trying to completely shelter my kids or keep the anti social. I am actually planning on teaching them how to give, love, have compassion, sincerity etc...

I think every parent just wants best for their kids, and that is all I feel like I am doing!

I am excited to get this venture going...ordering stuff tomorrow to make it happen!

Things kids say...

Paul almost 2 yrs ago

  

So recently I decided to start listening to my dramatized audio bible (has Jim Caviezel) anyway the other day my son Paul tells me its like being tortured because he doesn't understand what they are saying. So I tell him he can play but needed to be in the living room (something on my heart I felt I needed to do) so anyway he finally does and as I thought he relaxes. (he is a hyper child) so the next day (yesterday) I decided to put the audio bible in again (there are 20 cd's we had only listened to a couple) as we were listening to it about an hour later the electric goes out (tree had fell on power lines) and all of a sudden Paul says " man I was just getting into that" he seemed upset. That evening while we were praying Paul wanted to out loud pray for the first time. So we were praying and its Paul's turn. He starts talking about the audio bible saying "Jesus was healing people" and as a matter of factual says "and he made a bunch of stuff come out of a man and gave it to the pigs, I hope know one ate those pigs" now if you know Paul you would laugh your bottom off.

I now realize that listening to these my kids listen and are learning and understand so much easier then trying to learn it by reading it. Paul is 8 almost 9 and for him this has been so calming to him. But he now thinks Jesus is pretty darn cool!