Beginning of the month our whole world got rocked..I mean in a way that every mother and father who loves their kids can hit the soul and rock your world. Our biggest fears became a reality.
One of our kids made this fear a reality and one can not explain the feeling you carry when this happens. When your child is disabled and you know the reality of the situation is devastating your not sure what will be next. Your biggest fear is that they are vulnerable and cannot function fully with out supervision as you have always been the advocate and there is nothing you can do to help or change things. What does a parent do? I got the call of this child straight to voicemail (because my silly phone does not always ring) and you could hear the sobbing and tears. My heart sunk and I started to have an anxiety attack and my chest started hurting bad after throwing up. (let me got back almost 10 days prior...
My hubby and I were helping install a wood stove for my mom. The cement walls you put behind the fire place slipped from my hubbys hands from 10 foot in the air landed straight on my chest. I would not let him take me to the hospital because I said "well if my ribs are broken they can't do anything about it right, whats the point" I refused to go. I thought I would just get over it eventually. So back to the phone call, after the anxiety attack I started hurting badly. Brian didn't care what I said because of my heart problems he was taking me in. They thought I was having a heart attack at the ER because of the prior chest impact thought it could have caused damage to my hear because of compression. So thankfully none of that was happening. However my ribs are out of order (shifted) and my chest muscles torn. Anyway so time has went by and a week or so went by and my husband ended up being taken to hospital by ambulance to hospital he through blod clots in his lungs (which his mom has died from when he was turning 23, day before his 23rd birthday) and his sister almost died from it and father has problems from it. So thankfully his father from MO was able to talk to doctors here in Oregon and let them know right away before he even got to hospital so they would know how to treat him and he is doing wonderfully now. But stress can be horrible for the family. Anyway there are much more details I wish not to share but can tell you that our family has also seen many blessings where God has been there the whole way. Not only sparing my husbands life, mine but is opening doors we never had opened to us before that will help our disabled child.
We are excited that through all of this terror God is there to guide and hold us in this situation. Please keep praying for our family. The hard times are not over for us...but we know God is there and to me that helps comfort me and it has also made me seek God and depend on Him even more so. Life can be taken in a flash and there is no stopping it. Remember life is but a flash so forgive, let go and let God.
